My Evil Heart

    The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings. Jeremiah 9:9-10

At times in my life, I think to myself; I am not as bad as serial killers, people who molest children, or pimps, prostitutes, drug dealers, corrupt politicians, racist police officers, atheists and the list goes on of whom; I, at times feel morally superior to. Yet to feel this way is a mistake and a deception, because even as a born again believer in Jesus Christ, I still commit sin, and as a result of the sin, I hurt others and hurt myself. At this point, it is not my intention to hurt others or myself; however, that result is simply a natural consequence of sin, a natural result of a conscious choice to disregard God’s law and God’s opinion. The only reason I am not a selfish, heinous human being, someone that I would find repulsive and morally bankrupt, is because of the sacrifice and blood of Jesus Christ which covers my sin, and because of my choice to accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, and because of the help of the Holy Spirit; who helps me greatly to stay on the straight and narrow path, to the extent that I do, and helps me to do the things which are pleasing to God, to the extent that I do.

I am not a good person…I know myself, but it is only by the unmerited grace of God, that I am who I am today. I am not where I want to be in the Lord, as I want to be closer to my Heavenly Father than I am; however, I thank God, because I could be a worse and more immoral person than I am, and it is only because of Jesus Christ that I am not a more immoral person than I am. Does the devil tempt me, yes; however, it is only by the power of the Holy Spirit, that I am able to resist such temptation. At times I am tempted of my own heart, and it is only by the power of the Holy Spirit that I am able to resist such temptation. At times I am tempted by the world, and again it is only by the power of the Holy Spirit that I am able to resist such temptation.

In and of myself, I have zero power to resist temptation; it is only by the Holy Spirit, that I am not dead and burning in hell at this very moment, because if it were not for God in my life, that is exactly where I would be.

I am not a sociopath; I do not like feeling guilt and remorse, as it can be emotionally paralyzing and overwhelming; yet that combined with the conviction of the Holy Spirit is a good mix to help me stay on course in following the will of God for my life.

It is better to be a good person, than to be an evil person. It seems this simple message is scoffed at in many quarters in America, and as a result many state that there are no prevailing standards for morality anymore, and good and evil does not exist, and there is no right and wrong, and just do whatever makes you happy; which is a foolish philosophy promoting immediate gratification, with no consideration for the ensuing and long term consequences of one’s behavior. The wrath of God will be visited upon those who adhere to such a philosophy.

The Holy Bible states that the end of this world is very near, and that in the last days humanity will become more immoral, wicked and vile and love for others will be hard to find. Jesus Christ is our only salvation from our wicked hearts and from eternal condemnation.

Accept Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior, by sincerely praying the following prayer: “Heavenly Father, I repent of my sins, and I accept Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior, and I ask that you come into my life and forgive me, lead me and guide me. I give my life to you. Thank you for saving me, in the precious name of Jesus Christ I pray amen.”

Pray everyday, read the Bible, ask God to lead you to a good Bible believing church, do not sin, but if you do, ask God to forgive you and he will. Persevere through trials, heartaches, pain and suffering and do not allow anything or anyone dissuade you from your faith in Jesus Christ. Persevere unto the end, and God will present you with an eternal crown of life.

May Christ bless and keep you!

    Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.  Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil. Proverbs 3:5-7




As a Christian I have given my life to Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior; that being said, this life continues to be a mystery to me, as it seems very strange. I am conscious of God, of myself, of others and of the world. I am conscious of the present, and I remember the past and anticipate the future. As much as I love another human being, I cannot join with her, the way Jesus Christ has joined with me, because he has come to live within me as a spirit.

     Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me. Revelation 3:20

   If ye love me, keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. John 14:15-18

God is a spirit and he dwells within those who have accepted Jesus Christ as their Savior.

When I look at the world, myself and all that is in it; I ask myself why…? Why did God create me, you, this planet and all that exists? I am glad and thankful that God chose to create me, because I would rather exist, than not to exist. Yet, I don’t know why. This existence seems surreal, in the sense that we live on earth for a period time; however short or long, then we die physically and then spend eternity in heaven or hell, depending on one’s choice to accept or reject Jesus Christ as their Savior.

I know one day I will no longer be here, this concept is very fascinating, it’s not really a death anxiety; however, it is just something I am focused on and fascinated by. People die everyday, both old and young, rich and poor, black and white, and in every nation. We are here and then in an instant we are gone…it is wild. Perhaps, the idea of death seems mundane to many, but if one simply thinks about it, it is fascinating and perhaps  terrifying, if one has failed to accept Jesus Christ as their Savior. I don’t fear death, because I am going to heaven, because of my faith in Jesus Christ, yet I know a transition is coming from mortality to immortality. I don’t know when or how, but I know it is imminent, and on some level it is exciting and a relief. I don’t have a death wish, but it is comforting to know that heaven awaits me, a much better place than this material world…where there is unending love, peace, joy and rest.

Only last night I was watching the news, and about seven people were killed in a matter of hours, from either shootings or automobile accidents. I thought to myself, their lives on earth are over, and now they are in eternity; either in God’s eternal grace and love, or in eternal agony and torment, burning in the pit of hell forever. Amazing, absolutely amazing! I don’t know why some live and some die? This is where my trust and faith in God becomes essential to my very existence, not to mention my sanity.

     Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

If it were not for Jesus Christ, I would have been a nihilist and most likely I would have died at a young age, I owe Jesus Christ everything…literally everything…including all that I am, all that I was, and all that I shall ever be. Trust in God. Again, even as a Christian, this existence remains a mystery to me; yet I have a peace and a trust in God. I live my life by keeping faith in Jesus Christ, and I do not pretend to have all the answers. My understanding is rather minimal, when it comes to this existence. I don’t know why some live and others die, yet I simply trust the Lord, because he loves me, he is merciful and faithful, he is good and just, and he is all powerful. Jesus Christ provides my life with significant meaning and purpose, which transcends this material world. I trust God and I try hard to obey him, and I seek repentance when I falter. I thank God for his mercy and grace. I thank God for the Holy Spirit which comforts and guides me into all truth…amen.

Addendum: As I was writing this essay on November 5, 2017, I discovered that today an evil sociopath killed 26 people, including children and adults in a Baptist Church in Sutherland Springs, Texas. Such an evil, abhorrent act and a vile disregard for human life; truly one of the many signs of the time, and of the soon return of our Lord and Savior; Jesus Christ. May we pray for the injured, and for the family and friends of the victims; may Christ bless the memory of those who were murdered today. I don’t know why the Lord allows such evil acts; yet I trust God, and even though I don’t have all the answers, I will continue clinging to my faith in the Lord; Jesus Christ.

May Christ bless you and keep you! DLS


Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7 (In the name of Jesus Christ and by the power of the Holy Spirit; I declare that the devil will not have me anymore…amen and amen…Thank you Jesus!)



Lord you are…

You are my life

My meaning and purpose

You are the reason I am

You are my reason

You are the love

You invented love Lord

You love me

You allow me to love you

We love each other Lord

Yet your love for me…

So much greater than my love for you

You showed me love Lord

You are the love of my life Lord

You are always present in my life Lord

Truly Lord…I am never alone…thank you

You awoke me this morning Lord

You keep air in my lungs

You keep my heart beating

Whether living…

In a cardboard box on the banks of the Santa Ana River

Or in a mansion on the bluffs of Newport Beach

As long as my faith is in you Lord…all is well

Without you Lord…

Literally and figuratively I can do nothing

Thank you Jesus

Thank you Holy Spirit

Thank you Heavenly Father


For without me ye can do nothing. ~ Jesus Christ (John 15:5)

Copyright 2017



A new book God blessed me to write…may our Lord and Savior; Jesus Christ bless and keep you.




Life on Planet X: Christ our Salvation is a raw and unconventional Christian literary work, which includes a compelling and suspenseful short story of vengeance. Christian themed essays and existential poetry are also incorporated into this unique book.

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Sherman examines a number of problems plaguing humanity, such as the desire to murder, and the world’s self destructive obsession with money and pleasure. The writings guide readers toward establishing a relationship with Jesus Christ, in order to free themselves from an empty pursuit of vanity, and a paralyzing fear of nothingness.

Sherman states that Jesus Christ is the way, truth and life, and we should all accept him as our Lord and Savior, and that we should always pray, keep faith in God, and never give up, no matter what we are facing.

Excerpt from Pestilence; Life on Planet X: Christ our Salvation (c) 2017

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Beat It, by Michael Jackson is one of my favorite songs and music videos of all time.

You’re playin’ with your life, this ain’t no truth or dare, they’ll kick you, then they’ll beat you, then they’ll tell you it’s fair. ~ Michael Jackson; Beat It (1982)

About a day ago, I was watching this music video. I was watching Michael and the boys dance, and I thought to myself…it is hard to believe he is dead. He looks so young, vital and strong in the video. I realize the video was made in 1982; however, because it was made in the City of Angels; my hometown, in areas I am very familiar with…the video seems new each time I watch it. Michael Jackson is dead, and he is either in heaven with the Lord, or he is burning in hell; it is my hope that he is in heaven. Michael Jackson had millions of adoring fans…he was alive one second and dead the next. He was a great singer and an innovative dancer. God blessed him with a combination of skills and talents which are rare and exceptional. He was the best singer and dancer I have ever seen. Once one dies, life on this planet is over, their creative days on this planet are over…it’s a wrap and there is no going back for a second take; may we use our free will wisely. May we seek God’s will to guide us in our choices. Life…how strange it is; one of the many reasons I am a Christian. Life is so unpredictable in many ways…a reason as to why I trust in the Lord. This life is about accepting Jesus Christ as one’s Lord and Savior and living for him, because none of us are going to live on this planet forever. In a 150 years none of us will be here anymore…each of us will either be in heaven or hell. I will be in heaven by the grace of God; I hope to see you there!

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

Pacific Moon

Soft, wet skin; moonlight reflections in your hair

Coming in from a night swim

Tonight on the Pacific shore…

You look so different from the day before


Smiling at me…you fall on me

Resting your head softly on mine…softly on mine

Your wet hair ticking my head

Under the moon and stars we kiss…we kiss


Strong arms gently embrace you

Essence of a woman…you are…you are

Advantage taken of this you

Before transition arrives again


The you who values not time nor image

Is perfect for me…yet I know…I know

This you…will disappear as the dawn comes

Christ; the King of Prophets created you



I tell you…you work all your life like a dog Then you die…and for what? Or you get desperate… Do something malevolent for filthy lucre (money) And you either get killed or get sent to prison Thank God…Jesus Christ brings … Continue reading


All earthly things must come to an end…so is the case with; however, God willing a new project will premier soon. What is life…why do we exist? The universe, intellect, beauty, man, woman, pride, politics and money cannot save us…only God can save us…God created the universe, you, me and all of humanity. God is the reason we exist…submit your life to Jesus Christ. When God visits his wrath upon the earth, it will be swift and sudden…today is the day of salvation. One way or the other, sooner or later we all leave this planet. “Heavenly Father, I ask that you forgive me of my sins, and I sincerely accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, and I surrender my life to you…thank you for saving me…in the name of Jesus I pray…amen.”   




August 11, 2016 and I am pressing buttons on a keyboard, while staring at a digital screen. There is an attempt on my part, and a diligent one at that to avoid getting caught up in all of the madness, violence and chaos which seems to be on the rise in America and throughout this world, which is rapidly slipping into desolation.

For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. I John 5:4 

Issues of state sponsored infanticide, racism, abuse of power by those who have some earthly authority, perversion, immorality, greed, illicit sex, corruption and incompetence in politics…and personal issues are all challenges to our faith and to following God’s will for our lives. Appropriately coping with such challenges is a difficult task. Even as a born again Christian this mortal existence remains both surreal and strange. God created you and I, and he placed us on earth at this particular time, for reasons perhaps he is only privy to.

I am born of God, and by God’s grace, love and mercy and with the help of the Holy Spirit I will overcome this world, despite all of the issues, madness and chaos which seems to characterize this temporal existence…with the help of God; I will prevail! Jesus Christ saved me from nothingness; or perhaps a fear of nothingness. Jesus Christ saved me from a meaningless existence of chasing after the approval of man and material resources. Jesus Christ saved me from eternal condemnation. I am not about to throw away my salvation and my personal relationship with Jesus Christ, because of issues and circumstances present within this temporal and mortal existence. This temporal existence ends for all of us, and heaven awaits those of us who continue to believe and trust in Jesus Christ.

The key to victory brothers and sisters is to simply keep faith in God…no matter what! No matter who or what comes and goes in our lives…it is vital that we keep our eyes on Jesus Christ; the Author and Finisher of our Faith.

May it never be said of you and I, that we lost faith in GOD and gave up. Keep the faith brothers and sisters and stay strong through the power of the Holy Spirit. God willing, I will have a new project debuting soon; a contributing reason as to why I have not posted anything since April 2016. Keep the faith. JESUS CHRIST IS LORD!

I remember April; I love her and her name, a very beautiful, kind and loving lady…we drifted apart…I hope she is well.